sick girl

yes...i am sick. this morning when im wake up from sleeps my head felt so heavy and i cant even move a bit. i felt dizzy and my room is gettin all spinning around. at first, i thought that i would be better after i sit a while but its became worst when i open my eyes and sit. so,i was scream my mom and starts crying. my mom touch my forehead and suprisingly she said my body is so HOT. gosh,,cut classes today is the very not OK. today is the most busy day on every week because all the critical subject is on class today. Add math,Physics,Chemist which is so unforgiveable if not in class!!!!!!..oh Tuhan.

but i also dont want to make a trouble to my frens if i feel sick at schools. therefore,i just pasrah by not come to schools today. i promise i will study harder at home.

actually i just come home from clinic tau. firstly of course la malas sangat nak pegi. just sakit kepale je kan..but my mom was so pushing me to go. yela,mak mane tak worried sebab anak die salu jek ngadu sakit pale everytime wake up in morning or kat tempat2 public yang packed sgt ngan manusia. pastu aku selalu gak rasa nak pitam or some peeps called it gelap mata. so,pegi la clinic malaysia kat senawang. well,this is first time i go there. before salu pegi kat klinic jasa, or madiha je. my mom said this clinic is own by a women. so its easier to talk to la.

first impression okla. the clinic was so homy and cosy. the receptionist also kind. then the doctor is so great. i can say,it is the best doctor i've ever met in senawang ni. before,others clinic was sucks ok. masuk je,and tell a bit your probs then here they come the lotsa pills they gave you without futher check up..gosh!.

but this doctor was so good. she check everything here and there to find out what wrong with me. at last,she said that most probably i have a sinus probs which im not suprises coz i knew it already. but after she know my late sis died from a colon canser,she get shocked and seriously told my mom to take me for a brain scan and futher check up about nose and ear cause i got a frequently headache. she was giving me a short noticed to be givin to the doctor she suggest at salam specialist hospitals in lavender height as soon as possible.

and i was like, "hah,teruk sangat ker penyakit saye ni?" so the doc said that we should take prevention before its really happen my dear. oh great!,i was dreaming kan?...so i just pinched my cheek with hope i wake up in reality.but gosh its was REAL lah moron!.

the doc was so careful saying a word to me to had a brain scan.nauzubillah,,jauhkan la aku dari sebarang penyakit. aku muda lagi,spm pon xlepas lagi.haish,,tapi aku yakin that im alrite.insyaallah.

so,conclusion is,i will still waitin to my father when we were goin to have the brain scan.

p/s:hope the doc nanti can scan my brain whether die dah berlumut ke ape since aku xboleh nak menghafal ape dah ni!!!!..haha,kiddin lo...nak sedapkan hati yang gundah gulana ni..apepon doakan kesihatan aku ye =(

losing friends

is it true what the quotes said??..it is yes if now you are so happy surrounded by your bestie ang your dearie frens. but one day,sooner or later you will losing your friends to. its hard to maintan a relation when everyone is on their different path they took. its a reality after you finished your schools and go to University or even working. on that time,you will hard to hang out with them like you usually done when schools. if not busy,you will feel lazy to goin out with them since you'll think they just gossipin and all they do is boast about their newie bewie life with a handsomost bf and etc. but is it ok life without frends?

besides, friends is not forever with you. once a while, you will end up arguing bout a simple issue. this happen when friendship is gone for a long term and you have known good and bad bout your buddy. but i could not deny,there a few peeps out there who kept maintant their freinds for many years but you can count it by your hand. by right,i also experience this when i always fight with my bestie who i've known each other since our childhood. we were always make a jealous to each other and trying very hard to hurt the other feelin..haha..its suck.i admit it. i was always laugh at my self when remember those shit memories back..but!,my relations with her was becomes so GOOD plus its become more closed when she was offered to one of the elite schools. first knew that,i was a bit envy by her succeed but hence i also happy since our friendship is almost split. thank god,when we were separate ,we was always miss each other. god!,i was stupid before because i was blind on her kindness and caringness she showed. she was kept calling me from her schools and we were hang out when she comes home..wow.its feel awesome.

however,i also had some dilemma now. i haven't call my another bestie for a few month..maybe i ca give reason as im busy or wat so ever..but i was not!!..i just dont know why i was very lazy to dial up and call them...i just,,,er,,,dont know..haha..but,i also quite sad and upset tp them..just because im not call them..why they r not calling me back...just to say hi or wat...haish..im sad ok!. here those JAY's??joy as yesterday?...gosh,,,i'll threw that words if you guys forgettin me.but, i wish you guys gud luck in spm...hope thing goin ok after spm ok...i'll forgive u because i know im not perfect and great to all of u as a frends..but i do really miss our past memories but i also happy with my new life. i do hope you guys will be same too,and may god bless us =)

and here is my promisses to myself:

• i would never have a bf before i finished my spm.
• i would never go for movies before spm
• i would never buy a comics before spm
• i will study hard
• i dont want to futher my study abroad(i believe in malaysia edu.)
• i will keep my family first jo matter wat
• i only got i god that is Allah Almighty
• i will get a good grades to fulfill my parents dreams
• i will have a good soulmate which is older than me someday ;p
• i will take care of my parents
• i will take care of my nephew =)
• i will keep my dignity high.
• and lastly,i promise to stop write any promisses..haha..ok pullstop.
  
  
  

the conclusion is MONEY come and go, PETS come and go, TRENDS come and go, BOYFRIEND come and go, FRIENDS come and but FAMILY would never..so ask yourself which one you want to keep on your priority on?.